i started reading through a lent devotional from my old church the other day. it was a devotional that i hadn’t actually used during lent, but later in the year. i never finished it, so hopefully this time i will.
the pages before my bookmark were filled with notes about life… here is some of what i had found… things that i wrote 2 and a half years ago…
“We are like priests. I am a priest. An example. A leader. A connection between God and the world. One who is chosen. One who is pure. One who is seeking God. I should be wise, live to a higher standard, and know the scripture. How have I been these things? How have I not been these things? How do I need to be these things?”
^(it is funny how something written so long ago, with hidden meaning that I have forgotten, can be so convicting years later.)
“It hurts. It’s not my fault. I am not making it up. It just hurts”
^(talking about my headaches i think)
“I have had a non-stop migrane for 5 weeks. Doctors don’t help. Alternative medicine doesn’t get covered by insurance and costs a lot. I can’t even afford to pay for other stuff that i owe money for much less extra medical bills. And i’m getting behind in school. People are supporting me in prayer and with encouragement. And people are paying my doctor bills… and my other bills. The Body of Christ is alive.”
^(for those of you who dont know… 4 months later… thousands of dollars later, that headache finally broke.)
“‘A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples if you love one another.’ <I have been loved like this. Thank you.”
daveandliz said,
February 24, 2010 at 9:54 pm
i remember those days. beauty from pain.
love you.